I normally don't like to post about not so fun stuff here, but the not so fun stuff is part of life too, so here goes.
As a teenager I suffered from depression pretty bad, I would say it lasted until I got out of my first marriage. Every once in a while now I can feel myself slip into that rut again, but I am pretty good at realizing what is happening and can take control of it. Whether it be just giving myself some extra free time away from responsibilities and worry, or working on a project for myself or whatever.
The past little bit I have felt not myself, and I am having a hard time getting out of it this time.
I think it helps to write all this, it makes me think it through more. As I am sitting here I have been thinking of what I need to do to help myself.
The first thing would be to cut sugar out of my diet which will be super hard for me. I need to keep my house tidy, because if my house gets chaotic, I feel more chaotic. I need to spend more time doing nothing, I am go, go, go all the time. I need to make an effort to work out regularly. I need spring and sunshine and warmth to come and stay. I need to make an effort to pray more. I need to make an effort to read scriptures more by myself and as a family. I need to rely more on my Heavenly Father that loves me.
I know that I am blessed in many ways, I have a wonderful husband that loves me unconditionally. I have three beautiful girls that also love me unconditionally. We have a beautiful cozy home to live in, and our needs are taken care of. I have talents that give me happiness. I could probably sit here all day writing my blessings down.
This little blog of mine is a blessing too. I am a shy person, I have a hard time opening up to people. I am the worst at making friends, even when I try it's really a struggle for me.
On another note my new calling at church is assistant compassionate service leader. One of the things that requires me to do is to know everyone, I laughed, Ha, ha!
Maybe, just maybe Heavenly Father knows what he is doing and he knows what I am in need of at this time.
Anyways, Thank you for being here for me my blogging friends, you mean alot to me.